live fully so you can die complete
rooted in integration, intimacy, and initiation
rad·i·cal: root, origin.
er·os: lifeforce, desire.
is your life full…or just full of noise?
At 3 AM on a Tuesday, I lay awake feeling successful and completely empty. I had everything I thought I wanted and felt like I was dying inside. I know this feeling because most people I work with describe it exactly the same way...
That hollow ache in your chest when the alarm goes off.
The way your shoulders carry tension you can't shake.
The disconnect between who you are and who you perform.
Every day you perform instead of living, a part of you dies. How much longer can you afford to wait?
It’s Not Burnout. It’s Disconnection.
What's missing isn't another strategy or system. It's the courage to feel what you've been avoiding.
What Comes Alive When You Stop Performing?
In Your Body: Sleep returns. Shoulders drop. That chronic tension in your chest finally releases. You can feel without drowning.
In Your Relationships: Conflicts become conversations. Sex becomes connection. You say what you mean without needing to control the response.
In Your Work: Purpose aligns with action. You lead without performing. Decisions come from instinct, not fear.
In Your Life: You stop running. You're home in yourself. When you die, you'll die complete.
This Work is a Return.
I guide people back to their instinct, their depth, and their edge.
This isn't self-improvement. It's initiation. A return to the part of you that knows how to feel without drowning, love without losing yourself, lead without controlling.
A return to the origin of your own life force - your Radical Eros.
fear isn’t the enemy. it’s the compass.
Most teachings tell you to transcend fear. I tell you to lean into it.
Fear reveals where your false identity ends and your authentic self begins. Every fear you face is a doorway to more aliveness, more love, more truth. The transformation happens when you stop running from fear and start moving with it - when you can feel the trembling in your body and choose forward anyway.
This work won't make your life easier. When you stop numbing, you feel everything. When you stop performing, people might not recognize you. When you start speaking truth, some relationships will end.
But you'll never again have to live as a stranger to yourself. You'll never again have to choose safety over aliveness. You'll never again have to wonder "what if?"
WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU STOP PERFORMING
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"Ish is simply amazing! The way that he kept his presence with me made me feel heard, cared for, and inspired. I highly recommend Ish to anyone. You won't regret it, that's for sure!"
Verena Gruber, Archeologist
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"Ish is a one-of-a-kind individual, and I highly HIGHLY recommend you work with him, if you ever get the chance! He allows for you to process your emotions and thoughts in a way you may never have before."
Nate Maertens, University Professor
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"Ish has the beautiful gift of seeing your truth, of seeing what your eyes don’t see but your soul knows. He helped me to connect with my heart, moving from the stories in my mind to the feeling of inner knowing."
James Morrissey, Data Scientist
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"Through Ish’s support, I was able to make some potent breakthroughs that I wasn’t even aware of in the beginning, let alone break through them."
MARK GOBIEN, TEAM LEAD
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"Through our work, I developed deeper understanding of myself and how I behave for the first time in 35 years. It’s already showing in my relationship."
Ryan Abrams, Software Developer
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"Ish has the touch of a tender poet. His words are simple yet profound. His medicine flows forth, unabashed, as from a quiet roaring river."
Thomas Clayton, Sound Wizard
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"My husband and I are grateful for Ish from the bottom of our hearts for all that he has provided our son- mentor-wise, spiritual- wise, adventure-wise, emotional-wise, connection-wise."
Corinne Smth
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"Ish is a brother I value deeply. He is a leader of breadth, quiet strength and heart."
Speed Weed, TV Producer and Embodiment Coach
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"Ish has true vision and force. His passion, rigor and patience is empowering. His capacity for observation and taking intuitive action is exemplary."
Richard Burton, Lawyer
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"Ish has genuine, authentic curiosity. That shows in his work and in his interactions. I’m grateful for his ability to hold space and his ability to direct in the most precise way, at the most precise time."
Carlo Federiconi, Program Manager
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"Ish has an uncanny ability to connect and understand where someone’s coming from."
Quadri Akande, Solutions Engineer
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"Ish is the man!! He is simply a model in terms of how to be a great presence to others. A natural diplomat and a person who will enrich your life."
Simon Dragon, Hypnotherapist
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"Ish encouraged me to pursue what I love because, in the end, it will pay off more than anything."
Steve Sloane, Graduate Student
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"Being in Ish’s container helped push me to take some brave steps, including returning back to Europe after 5 years, and forming my own group. It was life changing, and if you give this work a chance, I have no doubt it can change your life too."
Kevin Rafalski, Carpenter
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"Ish helped me find tools that I could use in my day-to-day life to stay grounded and more focused."
Sofianne Yetto, Customer Success Specialist
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"Ish did a beautiful job of helping me to feel deeply supported from the moment the session started right through till the end. I felt like I could deeply trust him to go wherever I needed to go in that. If you're thinking about working with Ish, I can't recommend him enough based on my experience of him."
JACK BUNCE, Healing Guide and Breathwork Facilitator
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"Ish has helped me to be aware of some parts of my character that I was not aware of in my whole life before. His immense care and devotion to my evolution has as helped to improve my knowledge on soft skills to better understand my personality and behavior with others, and how to shift them for betterment for all.”
JANET MORA, Head of Customer Success
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"The processes that we embarked were gut wrenching, soul cleansing, and felt like giving birth. The space that Ish holds is of true reverence to something deeper than many of us can touch, but only feel in our bones. It's been one of the greatest periods of my life. I would recommend him to anyone looking for a deeper dive into their soul.”
Mikael Hayden, Leadership Coach
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"I feel very inspired by Ish's work, his leadership skills and when it comes to stepping into my power and pushing through hardships and challenges, life throws at me as opportunities for growth. I can highly recommend working with Ish to anyone who is willing to do the work."
Joel Rafalski, Cabinetmaker and Landscaper
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"Ish has been an incredible catalyst for growth and change in my life. He's been someone I have trusted countless times to help me find the true voice of my soul, to learn to love and trust more deeply and live more authentically. His energy alone is medicine. I can't recommend this man's work enough!.”
JASSY BLUE, WOMEN’S MENTOR
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"Ish's attentiveness while working together to achieve my main goals was impeccable! It's been an incredible experience, I wouldn't change anything!"
Neil Krohmalnik
ways to work
Solo
1:1 mentorship
High-voltage coaching. No fluff. Just truth, challenge, and transformation.
Couples
couples coaching
Deep work that happens only in the reflections of another.
group
retreats
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“Do not ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive. And go and do that, because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”
— Howard Thurman
hey, I am ish.
I spent my formative years living in fear, learning to survive rather than live. After drowning at Yosemite and encountering what lies beyond survival, I now guide others from fear-based existing to lives they can die proud of.
“NOT HOW LONG, BUT HOW WELL YOU HAVE LIVED IS THE MAIN THING.”
— SENECA
the ethos and the work
WHY MOST APPROACHES DON'T WORK
Therapy keeps you in your head.
You can learn to analyze your patterns but never learn to feel them in your body. Understanding doesn't create transformation.
Self-help is built on bypassing.
"Think positive" and "manifest abundance" are spiritual materialism. They teach you to avoid rather than integrate.
Retreats feel good but don't stick.
You have a breakthrough, then return to the same life. Without integration practices, the high fades in weeks.
This work is different.
Instead of learning to analyze, you’ll learn to feel.
Instead of learning to bypass, you’ll gather the courage to go through.
Instead of peaking, you’ll learn the art of integration.
The changes are permanent because they're embodied.